begin, again

it's been a few days since i quit my job. it doesn't seem real yet. to think that i need to get a new job downtown, so i can move downtown and enter a different way of life.
i know that it is all for the best, but a part of me still wants to hold on to the now. things never really work out the way that you want them to, or the way that you thought they would. but they work out the way the are supposed to. each event, failure and success is intended for something. for the 'greater good' of you. it is just hard to see it in that way, when you are in it, in that way. things become more clear when they are behind you and you can see it for all that it is. and all that it really was. i guess the best thing to do is to trust. easy to say, of course, difficult to do. because when you are trusting a situation it isn't even a tangible thing, like a person, that you can hold on to for comfort. and blame. you just kind of have to let go and let it all fall where it wants, and you find yourself in pieces of it all. hopefully not all in pieces.
so here it ends. and here it starts.
all to begin, again.